One Minute Blogger&2008

If you could be the best in the world at anything, what would it be?

thats a pretty intense question. but of all the crazy things i wish i was good at, i think i'd have to pick just communicating. im pretty bad at getting my feelings across, usually. with some people, its not a problem. but there are so few (2?) people that actually know me so well that i dont always have to be good at saying what i want to say. and its not only the important things, its everything. i talk a lot, given, but i never really say what im feeling. this is such a lame thing to choose, but whatever. (ha, allison. i told you.)

so my day today was so average i could cry. i woke up, went to james avery (for the fourth time in two days) with allison and kimberly, and then went to karen dillard. and then i went to starbucks to (try to) help michael and anna write a TACT skit, but im such a failure. the character i tried to make sounded just like me. it was pretty bad. and then i babysat, how out of the ordinary, and now im blogging. this paragraph alone could sum up my winter break. every year.

which leads me to my next point:happy new year! almost. this year feels like such a whirlwind. i feel like this time last year i was whining about not getting the real "high school experience". but now, as i look back on 2008, i realize i really did. in spades. i actually got hurt, i actually made legitimately bad decisions, but i also made peace with old enemies, and i also actually grew. a lot. looking back, i've learned alot in the past year, not only about the world but about myself. i learned that i can handle so much more than i give myself credit for, but also that im not superwoman, and that every so often, its okay to admit something is wrong. i learned that even when you're hurting, your real friends are still there. and i learned that when your friends are hurting, all you can do is be there. always. so hopefully i have been. i learned that when something goes wrong, theres usually something equal, if not better, coming right behind it. and hopefully, in 2009, ill learn to take my own advice. i've learned that people will come in and out of your lives, but the important ones stay. i've learned that "looking cool" isnt cool. i've learned that speaking your mind doesnt have to be so serious, and that "just because everyone else was doing it" or "because i was bored and awkward" typically dont yield good results. i've learned that being honest, even when it sucks and you're really really scared, is best. and finally, i've learned that being nice to someone who needs it gives you more satisfaction than judging and comparing.

so anyways, cheers to 2008, and its craziness. i hope y'alls year was as positive as mine, and i hope that we are all blessed in 2009 (yeah thats a cliche. im trying). good luck, friends.
later,
kelly